My life is different now. I live in Atlantic, Iowa. It's a small town with nice people but no clothing stores, Barnes and Noble, and not many restaurents. My apartment is nice and large and very welcoming. My goal for this year is: Never complain about anything. Never picture myself in another circumstance. Never compare my lot with another. Never allow myself to wish that this or that had been different. Never dwell on tomorrow. Tomorrow belongs to God. I believe what it boils down to is: Live with contentment. Live faithfully as a woman of good understanding with the Lord guarding my path. Since my husband died I find it more difficult to do this. I had many hopes and dreams and it's hard to let them go. Now I'm a widow and aren't as I would want to be. I spent forty years following him and all of a sudden I don't have anyone to follow. I'm on my own and praying God will help me not to waste my time here. I don't know what to be involved in. Many books on grief say to continue your life as before but my life disappeared and I had to start a new life and I'm not very good at it. This summer I plan to take pictures a couple of times a week, practice the keyboard, read books and study, and get involved in church. I'll let you know how it's going. Oh, and I want to drink tea on the deck. With Love