Waters Gone By

I am so glad to get back on my blog.' You will surely forget your trouble, recalling it only as the waters gone by'. I'm praying this will be true for me.  . Handling everything by myself isn't natural to me and I can't seem to get the hang of it. I also can't seem to find myself a good place. I do things one at a time or ignore them altogether. I know I couldn't have gotten through college this way but then there was hope. My dad kept asking me which college I wanted to go too. I just kept putting my decision off. Finally at Christmas Break he loaded all of us in the car and we went up to visit Iowa State. He signed me up, got me a dorm room and for I was enrolled for my freshman year. I graduated and then married.  I had wanted to travel and teach overseas.  I'm not sure how I thought I was going to do that. I was younger however now I am wiser. My job is to manage my life by myself with God's help.  I hope to get to a place where I can forget the trouble and recall it only as the waters gone by.

A New Life

I am starting a new life. My husband died and I have felt stuck in a dark place. But I want to get my life going. I know what I want my life to look like. I'm just not sure how to get from here to there. My first goal is to have healthy meals and start walking every day. Next I want to start attending church and become involved there. It seems that there is no real place[ for a woman without a husband. I want my life to have purpose and also to have creative activity. my skills are teaching and encouragement of others. I want to get my creativity and music back. Lord I don't know what to do but my eyes are on you.

Change

Change is a fact of life.  I don't like change.  College, marriage, teaching, four children in seven years, Grandma'-Nana 'death, dad's death,  Marvin's death, mom's death two older cousins death,  aunts and uncles gone. I am now a widow - something I never thought I'd be.  I don't have the skills a widow needs-taxes, budget, confrontation, independence. making important decisions.  I was a good wife but those aren't the skills I need.  The only non-changing thing in my life is that I am a child of the King of Kings.